thank god

so last night sean never came over thank god because he said that this house gives him anxiety and depression..whatever lol so its weird now that i got accused of doing stuff with tyler i cant stop thinking about him hmm

seriously mom

idk whyyyy she would invite sean over to watch the football game what the hell! whatever im most likly leaving when he gets here anyways soooo!
today i was watching tyra and it was about 13-16 year olds getting pregnant so sad i would make my daughter get an abortion if that happened because i wouldnt be the one to take care of her child it wouldnt happen good thing i have a boy :) he just better not get any girls pregnant haha
so i wentto my old work today it was good to see some parents and my old boss..i kind of miss it acutally i miss it a lot and she is looking for a 1 year old teacher but idk..uggh i dont think i could go back i cant turn down the offer i have now blah what to do what to do

Its decided

So i decided that landon and i are moving to oregon in january im sooo exicted :) i blocked my number to call sean and ask if he wanted to see landon he didnt answer so i left a message and called back 15 minutes later cause im asuming he got the message by then, soo then he kept rejecting my phone calls so i left another message saying obivously he didnt want to see landon which is really fucked up but whatever and tomarrow he is suppose to give me 100 for stuff for landon so i emailed him and of course he didnt write me back! oh well, that child support case should be kicking in anyday now, asshole!



landons first tooth is coming in, he is HELL. omg and its only the first one he is probably so confused what is going on in that little mouth of his. poor guy hmm :)

First football game

Today me landon and matt went to harry first football game of the year it was so fucking hott outside we only stayed till half time i almost died and landon wouldnt eat he was so hot
i cant stand my moms boyfriend i really need to get out of here..the idiot puts his clothes in the washer then leaves and hello im not going to sit and wait for you to get home from the bar to take your clothes out and i defitanly wont be finishing the load for you so i took his clothes out of the washer and put them on top of the dryer so i could finish my loads then he tells my mom that he is going to take my clothes and throw them in the dirty i seriously cant stand him and i need to get out of this place things would be so much easier without meesh but it would break my heart to leave her in this shit hole.
changed my phone number no more psyco texts from sean i hate when you trust someone with something person then when you fight they throw it back in your face, what are you 16? im done dealing with it
get me out of this town pleassse!

The FINAL break up

So this morning i broke up with sean, probably for about the 50th time in our year long relationship. Im acutally going to stick to it this time im so sick of all the fighting and its always over the exact same stuff, he really had the nerve to ask me if i was breaking up with him because of my room mate tyler icouldnt believe it.
landon is only 3 and a half months right now and cant really understand what is going on and see that i wasnt happy with sean and our relationship but it wouldnt be like that forever its better to get out when he is young. sean is a great dad but we just dont work together landon will only be happy if i am happy and i really think that this is for the better and i cant wait to see how things progress in mine and landons life!
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